Saturday, 30 May 2009

Half way there to my goal of life

It's so fast that I can't believe that I am half way to achieving my goal of life. In my childhood experience, I always be told that I have to study hard, get a degree to get a better life or a better future or a better husband!! Play wasn't part of my childhood experience same as most of other children in Taiwan. Music, art, fashion subjects weren't even a option for us, because those subjects are classify as low class with low pay and no future. When I start on this course, I have learnt so much that open my eyes and my mind. I thought I already have culture shock when I married to John, well I had even bigger culture shock of how I am going raise my children here. It's totally up side down with my belief of how my father raised me and my old culture background. I am glad that I have chosen this course and met so many wonderful people on the course.
Gosh, I am so nervous going to Warwick, but not because there will be more hard work. it's because of new environment and new tutors. It's just like first day of school experience for me, sounds very funny but I really feel this way. And somehow I just want grab someone I know with me, so I don't have to face it alone. I am 35 years old, I can't understand how this is happening to me. However as a mother, I have to set a good, brave example for my children, so I guess I would have to hide my feeling.....

4 comments:

Clare said...

Crystal, I admire you for your sheer determination and courage. I find the course difficult at times and English is my first language. To even consider taking this course which is delivered in a language not even your native tongue is such an admirable thing to do. Good luck in your exams and good luck at Warwick - I'm sure you'll be fine.

Crystal said...

thank you, Clare
it's always difficult with the first step to the new environment, well it is to me.
I will be just fine, once I have settle down there(if I can pass my exam first lol), I will let you know.
we should keep in touch, if there is anything you need from the course, please contact me. good luck with your second year to come.

Jen said...

crystal...although you had a different childhood experience, I think it gave you a very strong work ethic. Your determination is inspiring especially as English is not your first language! Don't worry about Warwick.....you will have lots of friends who will help you through... Plus I do believe we are very well prepared thanks to our first year! It's a journey.....at the start you were in the car alone.... But now you are travelling with like minded people who are heading for the same destination....! Exciting really isn't it..... I can't wAit ( for the end lol!!)

lin armstrong said...

I know you will be fine.A lantern to light the way . Keep blogging for your followers ..I know time is difficult to manage but I will always be connected so use me.